Fasting and Prayer

We have a corporate fast/prayer weekend this week, right in the middle of my 14 day challenge.  It's okay, I'm going to fast dinner tonight, lunch and dinner tomorrow.

I'd like to go on a prayer walk this evening.  I'm not sure if I'm going to do it alone or not, but maybe Ted will go with me.

I had a nice hike with Chrystal this morning.  I do hate going up that hill but feel so accomplished when finished.  We did it in 1 hour 15.

My eating is good for the most part.  I haven't had any sugar or flour but my weights were not perfect. Today my scale turned off while I was making my salad, but it's probably pretty close.

There are so many people to pray for and that need help from God.

Our Father, who art in heaven,
hallowed be thy Name, 
thy kingdom come, 
thy will be done, 
on earth as it is in heaven. 

Give us this day our daily bread. 
And forgive us our trespasses, 
as we forgive those
who trespass against us. 

And lead us not into temptation, 
but deliver us from evil. 

For thine is the kingdom, 
and the power, and the glory, 
for ever and ever. Amen.



The Wilson's - that they be relieved of their financial struggles soon.  May your Kingdom come in their home.  May your will be done in their home.  Give them their daily bread father.  Thank you so much.

AW - that she be touched by the hand of God.  In a most powerful way, that her mind and heart is healed and her burdens lifted.
MW - that he grows in his faith and stays on the path of righteousness.

For my husband - that he be granted a true desire for God and spiritual things.
For my eldest child - for her salvation
For my youngest child - for her attention to school and priorities, that her mind is focused on you first and her studies second.
For my mom - that I can be a good example to her this week while traveling, hopefully she can embrace Bright Line Eating.  She needs the encouragement.
For my siblings and in-laws - that they would obtain salvation.
For Cheeseburger - That he is healed of the cancer and stays sober.  Lord touch him please!
For me - God that my desire is for you and only you.
For my Bible Talk - They are healed, saved and touched by you.  They are blessed beyond imagination.

Thank you Lord Amen!

Week 16 - What?

Wow!  4 months in and I'm still in the game.  Or really struggling to stay in the game.  Starting from Bunco in December all the way to Bunco in January, I've struggled.  I want sugar, sugar wants me.

I do think that I can overcome my sugar addiction, but then once I have a taste, it rears it's ugly head and won't leave me alone.  I need a good, solid 30 days to get it out of my system.  It's not the answer.

Yesterday I started the 14 day challenge along with my friend Molly.  I've already cheated ever so slightly, but those little cheats means I'm a cheater.  I licked avocado off the spoon last night and just drank a bit of coffee with half and half about a half hour ago.  Its those cheats that crack open the door to indulgence.  For some people it's no big deal, they eat or drink and move on.  But for me, I'm a food addict and this is a risk I should not be taking.

I really am enjoying eating lots of yummy foods.  I enjoy a year round warm climate that produces tons of fresh veggies, fruits and basically what ever I want.

I weigh 161.8 lbs.  Today is Wednesday 01.17.18.  Last Sunday I weighed 159.8 so when I went to Bunco on Monday I gained 2 lbs from eating some crackers, cheese, nuts coated with sugar, M&M's and the coupe de grace - a tangy lemon bar.  It was delicious, but too sweet.  I had a tummy ache the next day.

I really just want to stick my face in a pile of warm mushy cinnamon rolls and have it all over myself.  Okay, I know that's exaggerating, but sometimes that sounds like it's the answer to my prayers.
But I know it's not.

I hated being fat.  I hated how big my tummy got, or how swollen my feet were.  I hated buying size 14 pants and squeezing into them and extra large grandma shirts.  I hated knowing that I was becoming diabetic and had abnormal blood test for everything.  I was tired, always wanting to nap.  I never had energy.

Funny that we started the 14 day challenge when we have a fast coming up at church and I'm going to Catalina with my mom.  Salad all around.  I believe I'm going to fast lunch and dinner but still have breakfast.  I don't want to be cranky.  At work on Friday I'll have to go for a walk instead.  I need to keep worship music in my ear at all times.

Until next time....

Week 15.8 - Catch Up

Boy did I lose it over Christmas.  Kept eating sugar, sugar, sugar.  I wouldn't say I did a full on binge but starting with the Bunco Christmas party on the 18th, I ate sugar pretty much every day for a week and other NMF.  The lowest I weighed in December was 161.8.  The day after Christmas I got myself on board but still struggled through out the week.  New Years was another hit but on January 1, I with an army of persons, got back on board the real train.  Today 1/6/18 I am at 160.8.  Overall wasn't that bad.

In other news - I went to my eye doctor to get my prescription for new contacts/glasses and decided to go ahead and get my eyes dilated.  She gave me the regular test where they shine the light in your eyes and you stare at the knob on the device.  Then afterwards she did another test with a different kind of light and that's when I knew something was wrong.  When she was done she said my retina looked fine but my left eye was showing signs of macular degeneration.  Whoa!  I was like "I'm too young for that!".  My grandmother has it and also my aunt.  I thought my dad did too but it doesn't seem to be the case, I asked my brother and mom and they both said no.  I started to cry and said I didn't want to go blind.  She said I wasn't going to go blind.  But that's what happens eventually, you lose your center vision and only have peripheral.  You can't drive any longer, reading is difficult, etc.

But today I can see.  I have full vision and a full life.  A good job, a wonderful church, lots of friends and soon I will be skinny.  I want God to heal me.  I believe in His Divine Power.  I hope for just one touch of His garment.

Gratitude is what I need today and everyday.