Boy did I lose it over Christmas. Kept eating sugar, sugar, sugar. I wouldn't say I did a full on binge but starting with the Bunco Christmas party on the 18th, I ate sugar pretty much every day for a week and other NMF. The lowest I weighed in December was 161.8. The day after Christmas I got myself on board but still struggled through out the week. New Years was another hit but on January 1, I with an army of persons, got back on board the real train. Today 1/6/18 I am at 160.8. Overall wasn't that bad.
In other news - I went to my eye doctor to get my prescription for new contacts/glasses and decided to go ahead and get my eyes dilated. She gave me the regular test where they shine the light in your eyes and you stare at the knob on the device. Then afterwards she did another test with a different kind of light and that's when I knew something was wrong. When she was done she said my retina looked fine but my left eye was showing signs of macular degeneration. Whoa! I was like "I'm too young for that!". My grandmother has it and also my aunt. I thought my dad did too but it doesn't seem to be the case, I asked my brother and mom and they both said no. I started to cry and said I didn't want to go blind. She said I wasn't going to go blind. But that's what happens eventually, you lose your center vision and only have peripheral. You can't drive any longer, reading is difficult, etc.
But today I can see. I have full vision and a full life. A good job, a wonderful church, lots of friends and soon I will be skinny. I want God to heal me. I believe in His Divine Power. I hope for just one touch of His garment.
Gratitude is what I need today and everyday.
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