Wednesday, September 12, 2018

9/12/18 Update

I've been back on the low carb train for about 4 days and already have dropped 4.2 pounds.  Today I'm 138.4 and I'm skinny!!!  But I laugh at what I think is skinny.  When I went to the hospital to give birth to my first born, I weighed 138 lbs.  When I got pregnant with her I was about 122 and thought I was fat then - geez - perspective is so weird.

My calories I'm keeping under 1000, my carbs under 20 net.  It's a bit hard, and I'm a bit hungry, but drinking green tea during the day helps.  I hope to just get this last 13 lbs off of my quickly so I can be out of the weight loss mode and settle into a regular diet.  Find other things to occupy my life and mind instead of the scale.

I'm not sure if I'll ever be free of it but I know I never want to be fat again.  I never want to feel that way again.  Chronic heartburn, couldn't tie my shoes, hated how I looked.  I was tired all of the time, extremely emotional, and pre-diabetic.  No thanks.

I must remember how that felt.  I can't forget it.

I'm hoping to maintain 120-125 lbs, whatever gives me a flatter tummy.  Working out 4-5 days a week.  I want to keep up with the spin as much as I hate it it's great cardio for me and not as boring as the treadmill.  I'd like to do yoga 3 times a week.  Keep up walking, go hiking once in a while.

Ultimately I want to help others lose the weight, keep it off and change their lives.

Lord help me keep my eyes on you and live a life pleasing to you.

Thank you,

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